life isn't going my way..

i witness 2 accident during the weekend.

both involves a motorbike and car, first one was a serious one.
Saturday, i saw the car crash right into the bike and the bike just split in two.
parts flew all over the place, the motorist flew off the seat.
just a few hours ago, i witness another accident.
the motorist was crash by a car who just over take to the most outer right lane.
i saw sparks coming out the bike when he ski along the road. the whole bike is lying on the motorist and most likely his leg was broken.
I was pretty frightened by them, it give me second thoughts of riding a bike.
i wouldn't want myself or any of my close ones to be like them.

i am tired.
how do you expect me to trust you.
the things you are doing and hiding are just forcing me not to trust you.
if you think those are alright, then how will you feel if i do the same to you?
i am really wondering, am i doing the right thing?
i choose to believe, but now i am regretting..
i feel so foolish now..believing all the lies thinking that they are true..