you said the things i did.
i did want to join you guys when you go out.
like the prawning, i said i want to go but i promise a dinner. so i say i will go after that and i called to ask for the location.
but what you said, i hate your boyfriend. don't come.
you guys went out during the holiday, did any of you actually tell me?

after school start, i talked to you all.
you all ignore my talking. i tried all my best to talk with you guys but what.
you all just isolate me. even when talking opposite the table, you guys don't even bother to talk to me. i already tried all my ways in talking, during breakfast, lunch or whatever.
you guys just simply ignore.

i know you cared for me. but sometimes it is just hard.
when i am with my bf and i wanted to join you guys. you push me away.
so what, you can't expect me to say hey, drive me there and you go home.
if the same thing happen to you, how you going to react.

both sides are important. i want to keep both side on good terms but you don't give me the chance.
i trust you, that is why i told you everything.
you are the only one in the group that i really trust and treasure and the only one i can actually talk my heart to.
someone i can share all my troubles to. it is because i know you care.

and did i even push my family troubles to you.
No! i am trying my very hard to solve it myself.
i didn't say this friendship is nothing.
i am trying very hard to do everything i can to salvage.
and for your information.
I smsed you for a chance to talk. at least a face to face talk to talk things out.
all the unhappiness and stuff. but did you actually bother to reply me.
i smsed twice, both time you didn't even bother to reply.
so what can i say anymore, what more you expect me to do?