Awaiting Lovee

2010-02-27T00:44:00.003+08:00

MOVED!

2010-02-23T01:15:00.002+08:00

3 papers to go!

it sucks! i hate exams!
i hate late night studying!
they just sucks big time!!

Thursday!
Please come soon!
i need some relaxation~

and i can't wait to get the BlackBerry Bold 9700~
then i will have a itouch for the application and BB for phone calls.
isn't it great! my conclusion after reading all the online comparison and reviews.
heeeee

2010-02-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

I got my Itouch! ♥

next will be Blackberry Bold 9700~

Exam next week!

Wish me Goodluck!!

anyway, i will be moving my blog soon!

reason: cause the link isn't right anymore..

so yup! look forward to my new bloggie!

2010-02-17T13:56:00.003+08:00

DTLE Final Test tomorrow!
argh! it sucks!
i haven't start studying!

shall not complain so much..
anyway!
i am buying a 8gb itouch ♥ .
should be a refurbished one since i already got a Ipod classic.
i am getting this one just for games?

changing my phone to blackberry bold 9700 ♥ .
yup! crazy me! but i love the design.
should be getting it in mid march.
since my contract ending soon.

2010-02-16T12:37:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!!
and Happy Valentine's Day!!

watched True Legend on 2/14.
average show cause i don't understand a thing.
still it is rather nice..

then i had steamboat for 3 times and a buffet.
i think i really gain a few kgs!
really got to lose some weight!

anyway, got a paper on thurs.
wish me luck!

2010-02-12T17:28:00.002+08:00

should i fake ignorance?

it sucks to know things you shouldn't know.
sometimes, i just don't know what i can anymore
why is it always like this?
how many times do i have to go through this again?

aren't you going to change like you had said?
i doubt so..it has been ages since you said..
i see no changes except the fact that you are still doing it.
i am disappointed..

2010-02-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

So refreshed!
Spend 1 1/2 days clearing and cleaning my room!
it is finally neat and clean!

Sometimes, cleaning can give you surprises.
Examples:
1. found a few hundred bucks in my drawers - lovely♥
2. found old photos, gifts and "treasure"
3. letters written by my friend in France a few years back.

i never expect to find the letters. While reading them, i remembered the times that we are so close like sisters. although we may be far apart, we are still close to one another. writing to each other, sending cards etc. sometimes i hope things are still the same, maybe it is just my wishful thinking. people changes over the time, maybe it is just me. but yeah, i do treasure those memories.

there is also unhappiness.. i broke a nail while cleaning..
oh well, i am going to get to "repair" and "renew" on thursday.
hmm..what design should i do for CNY? diamonds? flowers?

I saw photos when i am still a kid. omg!
some are like so cute and the others are just unglam and ugly pictures.
memoriess again. the spring cleaning every year do bring me some joy!

2010-02-07T02:13:00.002+08:00

A short update about my life.

as usual i have been missing lessons.

i think i need to do something before i get barred from taking exam.

80% attendance is ridiculous.

2 more weeks to exam. it is time to study and pass them all.

However, i need the notes!

the notes that i had missed because i have been absent from lessons.

Any kind souls can lend me the notes?

2010-02-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hello, i am back!

celebrated my 20th birthday yesterday.

yeah, i am officially 20!

like what my mum always tell me..

if you are fortunate you are married already.

anyway, i went dinner with the usual secondary school clique on Wednesday.

we ended up in imm cause the parking is free! Just for the guys..

i miss this clique especially those times when we play and do funny things together.

now, times are different. we don't really get to meet up anymore!

Thanks Peeps! I love the presents!

Huimin - I will read the book once i finish mine. Thanks! Love you!

Daniel and Yuan Zhang - Thanks for the bear! even though it is only 5 bucks.

Teck Win - Thanks for sending me home!

(will post up the pictures once i downloaded them, for the meantime it is on facebook)

Thursday - Dinner with Mummy and Baby in the Japanese Restaurant @ IMM

suppose to have dinner on friday but Mummy insisted that making money is more important than her beloved daughter's birthday. Thus, we have to have it on Thursday.

Had a chocolate birthday cake from Mum's Bf. it is delicious, i love it.

anyway, he said he will bring me for dinner on my lunar birthday.

(Pictures will be posted at a later date)

Friday - simple day! i spend my day at home with Mum sleeping. Went dinner @ Chinatown.

And i bought a dress @ 30 bucks. Cheap and pretty.

Thanks everybody for the greetings!

Love you guys lots!

2010-01-18T13:23:00.002+08:00

i am happy!
happy that things actually turn out alright.

i know i have been a really bad girl on saturday.
i got angry over stupid things that you didn't do.
i don't know what is with me. i make you so pissed off with me.
you nearly left me alone at home. i am sorry!
i will try not to be like that again. =)
love me like you are now.
dote me like you always do.
and never leave me alone at home..

things will be different after 29th January.
everything will turn out alright isn't it?
a broken life with a permanent scar.

2010-01-15T14:02:00.003+08:00

will be rather busy for the next few weeks.
There are so many things to do! "never-ending works"
will be having presentation at 3pm later. it sucks.

Bro got his O level results.
L1R5 = 13
L1B4 = 11
After deduction..
L1B4 = 9
crazy scores! now he can apply for any course and a scholarship.
Congrats to him!

anyway, will be meeting Eric next friday for dinner.
but right now, he is having a good life in HK.
hope his wounds are getting fine and enjoy his trip!
i need to go for some shopping trip! gonna get Jess's Birthday Present!

2010-01-11T13:49:00.002+08:00

rushing my DTLE report that due today.
and many more stuffs that is due this week.

anyway, something weird happen this morning.
a bus honk me when i am standing at the roadside waiting to cross.
and when i look up, guess what i saw?
the bus driver is smiling and waving at me.
i swear i don't know that driver and i don't think he know me too.

i am having some ear infection at the earholes.
now i can't wear any earrings. i feel so weird without them.
hope it will get well soon! i miss my earrings~

meeting Jessica Darling and Wen Chuan on 30th Jan!
Finally! it has been ages since we saw each other.
shall take more photos and post them on my blog and facebook!

2010-01-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

My mouse spoilt!
now i am "mouseless" and it sucks without mouse.
i can't play my childish games anymore!

anyway! i bought the books from Kerrelyn Sparks.
hope that it will be delivered ASAP, i can't wait to read them.
those vampire books are so addictive.

One more month to go, then it will be graduating time.
at least i hope so..lets pray that i don't fail anything..
then i guess, it is time to work and prepare for university.
before this, there are like endless of deadlines to meet.
test, mini-projects, presentation etc...they are really driving me nuts.
let me get through this period safely!

i realise i am left with nothing..
in 2009, i lost a bunch of friends.
reason? i don't know. i was told that i had used them.
we were once so close, hanging out together, sharing woes, helping eachother at works etc..
then they said i used them? seriously, i don't understand. if they are saying about work, didn't i help them too? i will always try my best to help and now they said i used them.
if it is about my relationship, i think even if we are friends. we don't always have to hang out together. i think we spend enough time together, and sometimes i just need time for myself. i have got to settle things that are out of my control and to bear with them. i don't need to you bear with it, but only to understand my situation.
i asked for forgiveness, i asked for a chance for explanation, i asked for a chance to talk. they denied it without a reason. then boo, everything is gone.Iis our friendship that fragile? small things can just break a 2 years friendship.
i missed those old times. but i guess there won't be anymore chances.
it seems like you guys had get over it. but i haven't, i am still hanging with the pain of losing you guys.
i still think of having this friendship. i do treasure you guys.
Anyway, All the Best!

2010-01-05T12:30:00.002+08:00

i heard from baby that dearest Hayley cried on the first day of school.
she will get used to it soon. the life in school with her brother and friends.
gonna get her some milo cereals as encouragement.

anyway! i am bored!
i had some super overdue photos in my phone.
i am so lazy to upload them. that includes my favourite shirt in baby's closet.
ohya! and Baby got a leather jacket from clubmarc that cost $159.90.
it is very nice and we got it at a special rate! Thanks Jessica!

2010-01-04T13:47:00.002+08:00

ohya! my 2010 resolution

1. Slim Down!
2. New Phone
3. New Laptop
4. Annual Overseas Trip
5. Pass my FYP
6. Graduate from Poly
7. Finiah the books by Kerrelyn Sparks

2010-01-04T13:19:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to All!
Good Luck to my Dearest Hayley!
(first day of school life)

I know i am late since it is 4th Jan already.
2010 will be a new beginning.
another year of craziness and happiness with my dearest girls and bf!
ohya! and not forgetting the "2 monsters".
i will get over whatever that had happened in 2009.

anyway, i spend both my new year eve and new year eating steamboats.
first with Baby and his friends! * 阿毛! you still owe me the photo taken with your empty iphone!
then with Baby's family at Coca Steamboat. We went shopping at Orchard.

overdue pictures with Hayley..

Hayley showing her armpit..

Big Eyes..

2009-12-28T18:48:00.002+08:00

Baby is away at KL right now.
wonder if he can catch the flight back tonight.
hmm, should i go down to Changi Airport to fetch him?

i was supposed to update yesterday with the bunch of pictures taken with my dearest girl.
but had a sudden dinner date with Baby's friend, Micheal, Eric and his gf.
went for Peranakan cuisine @ Beauty World. it is pretty good, but the chendol is just too sweet for me.
anyway, my dearest girl is addicted to Baby TV now, she can't stop watching it.
she can miss her sleep just to watch Baby TV, such a cutie isn't it.

i miss you!
be back soon!

2009-12-14T11:41:00.003+08:00

Common Test Week!

4 papers + alot of memorising work!
the "beautiful timetable"..

14 Dec Clinical Engineering - 4pm - 5.30pm
15 Dec Medical Imaging, Informatics & Telemedicine - 8am - 9.30am
16 Dec Diagnostic, Therapeutic & Lab - 4pm - 5.30pm
17 Dec Biomaterials & Implants - 4pm - 5.30pm

after Common Test..
there are still so many things to do!

Randoms:

* DTLE Research Assignment
* FYP
* CE Assignment 2
* MIIT Lab and Assignment

and of course my important NAIL INFLL
better get it done before my dearest cousin come after my butt~

anyway, i got a cute Piggy soft toy from Baby~
it is to accompany me through this stupid Common Test week..
Pictures will be taken once this "nightmare" is over..

2009-12-10T00:33:00.002+08:00

locked

learn to forgive?
learn to forget?
learn to let go?

is it time for this?

happy times always end early, doesn't it?

2009-12-07T17:00:00.005+08:00

Like you said today is a very important day!
celebrated it yesterday since today is a weekday

had dinner @ Empire State

Before Our Food is here..

Baby with his "stupid" face again

my turn - first take..

2nd take..

Pictures taken together..

Babyy look so fierce..

smile~

While waiting for food~

Babyy is hungry~

my turn to be boredd..

Food~

Baby's Full Chicken

Minee is Ribss~

Babyy couldn't wait to eat it..

the "after" picture of the chicken..

Anyway, the food isn't as good as the first time i went. I should had gone for Waraku's pasta.
wouldn't want to go back if i had a choice.

Island Creamery..

We drop by island creamery for ice cream~

Mudpiee! it taste real good~

Another Random Picture~

My favourite girl~

dearest hayley~

2009-11-30T12:58:00.003+08:00

went down to Expo with Baby on Thursday for Sitex.
We waited for Eric there since his office just nearby then went for dinner together.
Main reason is that Baby wants to buy his storage thingy from Dlink and to help my cousin look for a labtop.
but we ended up buying A.C Ryan PlayOn from his friend, Weelee.
That player was so good, now i don't have to watch videos on labtop.
i can now spend my time watching movies and dramas downloaded on the TV.
considering to buy 1 for Mum, since she spends most of her time at home.

Spend my weekend with the 2 kids.
Listening to them scream, cry and not forgetting play with them.
it is pretty much fun, just alittle irritating at times.

some ugly photos taken last night before heading for Macdonald's Ice cream.

Baby watching his "porn" movies

the most decent picture

2009-11-23T16:03:00.003+08:00

i went out of house without make-up yesterday.
and i dress so casually too! it feels so weird.
i can't believe i actually did that.
anyway, there is always a first time.

i am so happy~
my Victoria Secrets gifts are coming~
thank you my dear boy!
you know who you are..

I got 2 new mini kaleidoscope from baby.
got it from autobacs on friday before meeting Micheal and Eric.
and i saw Porche's and Hello Kitty handphone! it is so cool and nice!
how i wish i have one but it is way too expensive.

2009-11-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

thanks for being so sweet!
i love your sweetness..
it makes my heart smile..

2009-11-14T03:06:00.006+08:00

MY DEAREST SENIOR, Noel!

I just finish watching 2012!
It is really good, one of the best movie I had watched!
You won't regret watching the movie! It is way too good!

Well, I learned one simple thing.
Treasure your love ones, before it is too late
With all the natural disaster now, I really wonder if the real world will end up like the movie.
We may just lose everything in a second, without us knowing too.
Before the earth decided to turn nasty on us. We better treasure what we have now.
We may just lose anything and everything in the blink of an eye.

Anyway, I am tired. Like seriously tired.
I need some nice and lovely sleep with a wonderful breakfast tomorrow.

2009-11-09T13:55:00.004+08:00

i am still bothered by you.
there are lots of doubt running in my brains.
i don't know why and don't think will ever find out.
i know it is best that things kept it this way.
i should just let things stay as it is?

tomorrow will be a stupid stupid day!
first time going to a lawyer.
maybe the start of my life attending court session?
then start to point fingers at my dad?
it is so going to sucks big time..
he deserve whatever that is going to happen to him but i still don't like it.
someone just teach me how to handle this?

i just realized.
i changed. changed to someone i don't know myself.
i did things i wasn't suppose to do.
something that i never do in the past
i know i am going to hurt someone when they found out.
i am really sorry! sorry to have hurt you this way!

2009-11-09T12:38:00.002+08:00

Watched Astro Boy Movie on Friday.
the movie was cute and touching.
i like that movie!

but the stupid cinema chair "pinch" me.
leaving me with a stupid "blue black" mark on my arm.
it is ugly.

Girl!
Good Luck to for your A s.

2009-11-03T10:08:00.002+08:00

Went down to VivoCity on Saturday.
Initial plan was just to collect Baby's shirts.
However, we were both stuck in Club Marc.
Cause they are having a sale and i saw many clothes that i love.

As for Sunday, i practically spend my whole day doing up my gel nails.
i love my new nails, so shiny with all the "blinks blinks".
Thanks Cousin for the pretty nails~
and get well soon!

2009-10-30T15:49:00.004+08:00

year 3 is bitch..
with tons of assignment and mini-projects to do.
deadlines to meet and also the bloody FYP.
I am so so so busy! so many work to do

Went to Minoru Japanese Restaurant for dinner.
the sashimi they serve is so fresh and the wasabi is nice.
it taste really different from those we take in Sakae Sushi or so.
and of course. the bill is kinda high.
For that few dishes, it cost about 200-300 bucks.

2009-10-27T16:38:00.003+08:00

school sucks big time.
i hate the lecturers.
i hate my supervisor.

project is giving me shits.
friends are giving me shits too.
how "wonderful" life can get!

i just need to end all this.
please teach me how to end this.

2009-10-26T12:43:00.003+08:00

I give up.
i give up waiting for a change to talk.
like everyone told me, maybe you are not worth it.
i hate it this way but i think that's it.
it is not that i didn't try. i did and was not given a chance.
the post may not be for me but i don't wanna know anymore.
it is tiring to wait and get no answer or result

if i had did something wrong, tell me.
if not, then fine. just let things end this way.
let me have good memories of our friendship.

2009-10-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

i guess your post is the answer you gave me.
if that is really what you want, then fine.
thanks for being a friend for the past 2 years.
i really appreciate it.
Thanks alot!

2009-10-19T12:24:00.002+08:00

first day of school!

first lecture is already super boring.
i wonder how am i going to survive this whole semester.

as for you.
i think i should really give up?
it seems like our friendship is really going to end this way.
i don't want this to happen but i have no choice.
if you happen to see this, i really wish to talk things out.
i hope i got this chance to.
i don't want our friendship to end this way.

2009-10-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

1 week passed..
2 more weeks till the end of baby's reservist..

1 week break then there goes a new semester.
and graduation!
i can't wait for that day. then i can work work work and earn money~

anyway, next Sunday got to attend wedding dinner with baby.
it is so weird, his friend wedding but i have to attend too.
why? cause his weird friend asked and he replied for me, saying i will go.
thus, i need to be there too!

anyone wanna go out this week?!
come and ask me out!! i don't want to be stuck at home!

2009-10-09T10:11:00.002+08:00

Last day of VPP!
happy happy happy!!
no more 9am to 5pm boring project life!

anyway, met up with baby yesterday!
ate my lovely mcdonalds meal for dinner while waiting for him.

ohya, i am going to start going for muay thai classes next month!
yupp! got to train real hard this time round. no more slacking!

12 more days till the end of his reservist!

2009-10-08T10:18:00.002+08:00

met up with my boy yesterday.
reason - cause he bought my favourite oneh oneh from Whampoa.
he bought me a piece of cake from breakfast too.

anyway, gonna meet him tonight @ Chinatown Point.
after his muay thai class at Fight G.
i miss those lessons, i am going to start going for lesson next month.
need to do some exercise to burn those fats.

14 more days to go..

2009-10-07T13:43:00.003+08:00

Project supervisor just farted like a few minutes ago.
He farted like so damn loud.

i hate school!
i rather stay home and sleep.
those medicine make my brain go "jelly" and "dead".

15 more days to go!
will be able to see my boy real soon!

2009-10-06T18:03:00.003+08:00

I got a good news for myself.
Baby is working office hours for his reservist!
meaning - Saturday and Sunday is for ME!

i think his Sirs or Madams just love me.
why? cause they let him work office hours instead of shifts.
or maybe god just loves me!

16 more days to go!

2009-10-05T16:15:00.004+08:00

First day of Baby's reservist.
meaning 17 more days to go..

Baby having reservist and i am sick.
fever, sore throat, flu.
i want Baby's hug so badly.
how i wish he can be here to take care of me.

i am starting to miss him.
reservist meaning no calls and sms till he end "work".
sometimes i just hate that guys got to serve NS..
i really miss my boy...

2009-10-01T11:02:00.003+08:00

new skin, new start..
i am not going to be bothered by whatever had happened.
if things is fated to be like that, then let it be.
i am not going to do anymore things.
i had done what i can do and nothing more.

my last weekend with my dearest Baby!
then there he goes for his 3 weeks of reservist.
inform me the schedule once you got it.

2009-09-30T12:19:00.002+08:00

life isn't going smooth for me

how i wish my poly life can end soon..
sometimes i really hate coming to school..
i am left with 1 last semester,
and yes, i will endure through this 1 semester and leave this place..

thanks to you, "father"!
it is all because of you, now i can't choose my modules.
i really hate you to the core.
you don't fit to be a father and you want me to respect you.
dream on! don't come back to us next time, don't ask for forgiveness.
i will never forgive you. you are just a f**king b*****d.

2009-09-29T09:51:00.003+08:00

Baby maybe going to tour around Europe for a month.
okay, it is not a tour but a business trip. STILL..
it still means a month without my dearest boy.

my dear boy is really a joker.
i told him to get me a LV or Kate Spade Bag from Paris.
but he said No. (evil)
he say he will only buy me LV heels. Reason is he want me to walk with LV under my feet.

he is going to so many different places..
too many to list, but i am just interested in the BRANDED GOODS which is so much cheaper compared to those sold locally.
i want small little souvenirs that represent the country.
how i wish i can join the trip~

2009-09-29T09:21:00.002+08:00

i said what i want to already.
so it is up to you now.

anyway, met up with Huimin yesterday for dinner.
we went New York New York and ate half chicken.
i think we are so stupid, that we forgotten that we can get a full chicken set instead of 2 half chicken.
even the waitress is shocked when we ordered 2 set of half chicken.
I feel so fat after that dinner. i really need to cut down on the fats intake.
steamboats and big meals is contributing to all the fats.

3 weeks starting from 5 oct, with baby having reservist.
i am so going to cut down on the fats intake.
i want to get rid of the 3-4kgs gained over the past 2 months.

2009-09-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

you said the things i did.
i did want to join you guys when you go out.
like the prawning, i said i want to go but i promise a dinner. so i say i will go after that and i called to ask for the location.
but what you said, i hate your boyfriend. don't come.
you guys went out during the holiday, did any of you actually tell me?

after school start, i talked to you all.
you all ignore my talking. i tried all my best to talk with you guys but what.
you all just isolate me. even when talking opposite the table, you guys don't even bother to talk to me. i already tried all my ways in talking, during breakfast, lunch or whatever.
you guys just simply ignore.

i know you cared for me. but sometimes it is just hard.
when i am with my bf and i wanted to join you guys. you push me away.
so what, you can't expect me to say hey, drive me there and you go home.
if the same thing happen to you, how you going to react.

both sides are important. i want to keep both side on good terms but you don't give me the chance.
i trust you, that is why i told you everything.
you are the only one in the group that i really trust and treasure and the only one i can actually talk my heart to.
someone i can share all my troubles to. it is because i know you care.

and did i even push my family troubles to you.
No! i am trying my very hard to solve it myself.
i didn't say this friendship is nothing.
i am trying very hard to do everything i can to salvage.
and for your information.
I smsed you for a chance to talk. at least a face to face talk to talk things out.
all the unhappiness and stuff. but did you actually bother to reply me.
i smsed twice, both time you didn't even bother to reply.
so what can i say anymore, what more you expect me to do?

2009-09-28T15:57:00.004+08:00

i am tired..
seriously tired..

Friends, Family..
What are they?

Friends..
i tried to salvage our friendship. you don't give me the chance to.
if you insist is my fault, then fine.
but did you even think in my shoes.
you guys are the one pushing me away.
i tried talking, you ignore..
i wanted to join you guys for outing, but what reaction you gave me?
do you even think in my shoes?
do you know how i feel when you guys throw me out for project and outing?
is that what you called friendship?
you said i used you, all i can say is i did not.
i treasure all of you, i want this friendship to last.

but you guys never understand what situation i am in.
i got more problems than you guys think.

Family..
i always envy people with happy family.
why can't mine be the same. why are you always so unreasonable.
why is my father different from others?
why can't he understand how we feel?
why can't he think in our shoes?
you only know how to push blames to us, scold us.
do you even know what we want?
stop blaming mum. she did nothing wrong!
you are the one in WRONG!
you can only BLAME yourself!

if you choose to treat others children better than your own.
it is your responsibility, i didn't owe you anything.
you didn't owe me anything also, if it is like that then don't have us in the first place.
you are making our life miserable.
when you ask what is wrong, think about what you did.

THANKS DAD! THANKS FOR ALL THE SUFFERING YOU GAVE!
i don't give a damn to you anymore. you want to settle it in court!
I AM FINE WITH IT!
LIFE WILL BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU, DAD!!
you are never a good father and you never tried to be.

2009-09-22T12:24:00.002+08:00

Baby will be going for a 18 days RESERVIST from 5th October to 22nd October !
which will also means 18 days without Baby!
He can't accompany during my precious 1 week break before semester starts.

I must plan my schedule with Baby once he get his schedule.
Target! meet him at least TWICE a week.

I should also start clearing up my room during this 18 days.
It is so messy right now! Also do up my nails again!

2009-09-17T09:33:00.002+08:00

why don't you ever listen to me?
you say you would, but you never.
you promise you would, but you never did.
sometimes, it makes it so hard to believe you.
when i start trusting you, you have to do things to break that trust.
tell me, how you expect me to believe you.
can you just teach me..

2009-09-16T19:22:00.002+08:00

my poor baby is sick!

my poor boy!
take care of yourself!
don't let me worry about you, okie?

stop sleeping without the blanket!
keep your cute little tummy in it too!
it is for me to see and not the aircon!

Be a good boy , okie?
i will reward you with goodiess~

2009-09-14T16:02:00.002+08:00

i hate school
i hate my peers
i simply hate everyone in school

how i wish things can stop now..
i want to graduate ASAP..
i want to leave this damn place and start new!

i want to meet up with my girls!
i miss them so badly!
i miss talking to them, sharing gossips and troubles..

Baby! I really want what i told you just now..
i really feel like having it..
but it seems like it isn't the right time?
Baby!! please tell me what to do?

2009-09-09T14:56:00.002+08:00

Went to watch G Force 3D yesterday.
such a cute movie, with the guinea pigs talking and flying around.

oh ya, bought couple shirts with Baby the last weekend.
Will take picture and post it as soon as i take the picture.

Anyway, Here are the pictures for Baby's Birthday that i owe since August..
Sorry Baby!!

the birthday cake

Baby and Denzel (Boy Boy)

Me, Baby and Denzel

Baby blowing candles

Dinner at Hoshi Japanese Restaurant to celebrate Baby's Birthday

Food that we ate..

Anyway, I don't like the restaurant.. Their serving time is way too slow, and we had buffet but our food took like more than 20mins to arrive. The food is good but the service is bad. I regretted going there.

2009-09-01T16:03:00.002+08:00

Went KL with baby on the 21st to 23rd.

Enjoyed the 3 days! Thank You Baby!
Had a great shopping trip and the food there is superb!

Here are the photos taken..

in the hotel room

outside pavilion

with yum yum

another one with yum yum

at Yong Peng

Pictures of the Food~

Dinner of Day 1

Dinner of Day 2

Stall that we bought from, look at the washing area

In Time Square Theme Park

Random photos

Versace on Baby's hand!

infront of LV

Bus that we took to KL

in the room with yum yum

another one with yum yum

in Yong Peng

Letter from the Hotel

Our Room~

In the Hong Kong Cafe

2009-08-25T14:53:00.007+08:00

My Internship at KKH officially ended on the 14 August 2009!
anyway, these 6 months had been great especially with you guys there!
Gonna miss you big time, ah Pauls and of course Alson!

Pictures taken on my last day..(without Alson)
That guy is on reservist.

Chin Bee and Me

Me, Chor Teck and Pauls

Kar Bin, Me, Chin Bee, Sook Yean

Pauls, Me, Chor Teck

Me and Shook Hann

Chin Bee, Kar Bin and Me

The Crabs~

Me and Chor Teck with his tank of "pigs"

Pauls! Meet Up Soon! with AlSON!

2009-06-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

how many big F word can i put here.

how many F word can i show you.

how many F word you need to get you understand.

how long will you take to understand what i want.

why force me to do something that everyone will regret?
stop thinking that i won't, i will do it if i am forced to.
if you want to see it, keep on doing whatever you are doing now.
i don't need anymore stress or problems. so stop adding on to it.
it hurts thanks to you.

2009-05-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

i take all your words seriously..
the things you promised you won't do, i really hope you will not do it.
i choose to trust you..
so please, make my trust worthwhile.

i can't take anymore of those and you know it.
Please, don't do it anymore..
it hurts badly and i hate it.

2009-05-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

life isn't going my way..

i witness 2 accident during the weekend.

both involves a motorbike and car, first one was a serious one.
Saturday, i saw the car crash right into the bike and the bike just split in two.
parts flew all over the place, the motorist flew off the seat.
just a few hours ago, i witness another accident.
the motorist was crash by a car who just over take to the most outer right lane.
i saw sparks coming out the bike when he ski along the road. the whole bike is lying on the motorist and most likely his leg was broken.
I was pretty frightened by them, it give me second thoughts of riding a bike.
i wouldn't want myself or any of my close ones to be like them.

i am tired.
how do you expect me to trust you.
the things you are doing and hiding are just forcing me not to trust you.
if you think those are alright, then how will you feel if i do the same to you?
i am really wondering, am i doing the right thing?
i choose to believe, but now i am regretting..
i feel so foolish now..believing all the lies thinking that they are true..

2009-05-18T00:14:00.003+08:00

i give up!

why am i digging out things that is hurting me?
why are you trying to hide them?
why can't you just stop hurting me?

please don't do this..
i can't take it anymore..

why must things always turn out this way.
why does it always happen on me?
can someone just brainwash me? please..

those things are haunting me..

2009-05-17T18:02:00.004+08:00

I Still Believe In Loving You

Just when I thought of love is here to stay
Just when I thought you never ever go away
You said it’s time for you to go
But I’m not sure I really know why you are leaving

And when we finally said our last goodbye
I’ll never make it hard for you
You won’t even see me cry
And thought the tears inside of me
I’m gonna make your heart go free
Before you leave there’s just one thing
that I want you to know

[chorus]
I still believe in loving you
Inspite of all the hurt that I’m going through
Even if again and again you would break my heart
One thing would never change
I still believe in loving you

If you tell me that you’ll be alright
I’ll never let you see me bloom
But I’ll keep our love alive
And thought I’m feeling incomplete
I guess that this is what you need
Before you leave there’s just one thing
that I want you to know

[repeat chorus]

2009-05-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

I hate you.

you think i will never find out all the things that you have been doing?
i found out, i know the things you have been doing.
why do you have to do this? why?
is it that fun to hurt me? or you just feel that i am just some stupid girl that will live in your lies?
until one day, you actually take this knife and stab me hard in my heart?

what am i doing? why am i letting you hurt me like that?
i hate the fact that i know too much. i hate it..

2009-05-06T20:04:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since i update.
my life was pretty much messed up. things are going beyond my control.
I am so sorry to 2 of my dearest! I am sorry that i didn't attend any of the birthday celebrations!
I really regret and please forgive me! We shall meet up sometime soon, my dears.
I need a heart to heart talk soon.

Short update on my attachment. Well, have been doing PMs for the Labs including the mortuary and histology labs. I was being exposed to things like organs, aborted babies, dead babies and also things that they did to do investigations, such as are cutting up the bodies and etc. I don't mean to scare anyone but these things really haunt me. especially, the body of the pre-born baby it really scare me. It somehow makes me feel that life is so vulnerable, you may just lose it anytime. So treasure it! The abortions too, so please people don't do "silly things" unless you are really sure about it. If not, you are really killing a life and it will be a really terrible death.

to my dearest friend,
I am really sorry that i didn't attend your birthday celebration. i really feel so pressured and breathless when things just came crashing down. i am very confused and i really don't know what i can do about it. i know what i am doing isn't the right thing. however, there is something in life that you really don't want to lose. i know that he is someone i don't want to give up. he is someone i want to stay with, the feelings i put in is too much to take it back. whenever, i want to give up those happy thought just keep flashing in my mind. i know this isn't right, but i just want to give it another chance. Although, there are times whereby those things keep haunting me making me feel so terrible. i just don't want to regret and i hope whatever i am doing now will prove me wrong.
i understand everything you told me. i know you care, i really appreciate it. i really do and i need your support in the things i am doing now. if you also don't understand me, then no one will. I don't want to lose you, no matter what you will always be my dearest friend. i love you.

2009-03-25T19:23:00.002+08:00

i need someone to talk to!! like seriously!
i feel so miserable now!

i know everyone has been telling me that i am too attached to him.
i knew it myself, i don't want to be like this. i get too affected by the things he do and say.
the feeling of insecurity is hitting me hard. seriously, i hate this feeling.
it is like i don't even know what i want in life anymore. i am so confused, things is just not going the way it should be.
i don't want things to turn out bad. i want us forever and not memories left...

am i too attached to him that i am losing myself?
why does it seems like i get emotionally affected so easily?

why is there are sudden chance in you?
is this a sign that says you are tired?
are you giving up on me and leaving?

2009-03-24T14:37:00.003+08:00

I am on MC again! I am not getting better but getting worse.
Anyway, I went JB for seafood on Saturday.
Here are some pictures of those delicious food..

i am so going to grow fat, thanks to the food..

My dinner on Sunday @ Mad Jack. The food there is nice and the price is really reasonable also.

baby's chicken chop in black pepper sauce

mine is chicken chop in cream sauce.. both are really yummy!

other random photos taken in the restaurant..

lastly, pictures of Baby's niece, Hayley. This cute little girl is addicted to taking photos too, keep saying "cheese" and asking us to take photos for her.

the pictures are blur cause she kept moving..

2009-03-22T16:49:00.002+08:00

The pictures that i promised to post up..

This is my working wear..

Taken on 13 March 2009, Friday

Breakfast @ west coast McDonald..

Night at the Alexandra Arch..

i maybe going to henderson wave later. i am so going to take more photos there.

2009-03-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

attachment is crazy! seriously crazy and tiring!
it is really killing me with the boredom and sometimes work.
anyway, i have nice colleagues! my supervisor is a really nice lady, she is really friendly and always talk and smile to me. of course, my buddy is a nice man too! he really taught me a lot of stuffs for the past few days. i did PM and commissioning already, it was really interesting! better than asking me to do admin work. AND i went to all the different place already, the hospital is so damn huge that i keep getting myself lost.

anyway, i finally met up with baby and as usual stayed over at his house for the weekend! I got to eat my McDonald's breakfast at west coast! the place is really nice and relaxing! so peeps, go there for breakfast if you have a chance. however, the place is difficult to get to unless you have a ride yourself.

we really spend quality time together and have been crazy over movies these few weeks. we watched Marley and me, Push and Dragonball Revolution. The first movie is really nice but the other 2 is a total waste of money and time!

Then, we went to Hort Park cause i insist that i want to go. anyway, the place is damn nice. we took plenty of photos there but currently they are with baby. so gonna wait till the next time i met up with him or during the weekends before i can upload them. But! i still wanna go there but to the Henderson Waves. I am gonna ask baby to bring me there! =)

We went Kah Motor today to check up some car stuffs. Yeaps! Honda Civic is really nice! the seat is so spacious and comfortable, the design is really nice too. overall, i love the car! i am so going to raise both hands if baby is really gonna buy it!

I guess that's all for now? i know the post is in a mess, i will re-write it if possible. the only thing i want to do now is sleep! so sorry about it! as for the pictures, i will upload it soon.

baby baby! i am so going to miss you!
and love you, boy!

2009-03-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

Attachment is TIRING! all my energy has been drained off and it is just the FIRST week! someone just save me!

I miss Baby like crazy! how i wish tomorrow is Friday..
Baby baby baby~~

2009-03-05T16:28:00.005+08:00

short updates..

went JB with baby on 28th Feb for some shopping and relaxing. it has been a long time since i ever step into Malaysia. the Japanese food there was good and cheap compared to the local ones. the best thing is the atmosphere there, so relaxing.

he was forced to take the picture

Before that, accompanied him for work at Buona Vista.

my breakfast

lastly, went powerhouse with Cassandra, June, Hansong and their friends. well, of course Baby was there too since i have no self control and he has to be there to "take care" of me. something happened and it is pretty irritating. if you wish to know more, read June's blog or so. didn't really play much yesterday since Baby got to work the next day. Therefore, i got to leave early with him since i can't stay alone in clubs. don't misunderstood, i am not complaining.
sadly, no photos taken yesterday. will remember to take photos next time when i go club!

2009-02-26T15:02:00.002+08:00

i am back from the exams!
this means that i will be free for like a week before attachment starts.

Anyway, i will be having my attachment in the KK woman's and children hospital from 9 march to 14 August. So, if you guys happen to pass by please come and visit me! the "pay" is pathetic, or maybe we should just call it allowance. the working hours is really long too, just hope that i will be able to negotiate with my HR department or my supervisor to do some small changes to it. if not, i will be really before my attachment ends.

I really have serious problem sleeping in his house. it seems like whenever i stay over at his house, i will not have enough sleep. i will be waking up in the middle of the night by some little sound here and there. is it because i am a really light sleeper or i just can't get used to his house? this problem is getting really bad especially when i already haven't been sleep well for the past few days. i guess it will be worse after attachment starts, imagine i can't sleep well for the whole week if i am staying over for the weekend. can someone just tell me some solutions before i am dead?

2009-02-22T13:00:00.001+08:00

When will i be set free?
3 days ?
A year?
or never?

i need a break from all these nonsense! a long and relaxing break to be exact!
1 week of break before attachment starts, it seems like there will be a never ending work for me.
exam, attachment, presentation, school, exam etc..
this is ridiculous~damn it!

2009-02-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

why am i blogging again?
because i just can't seem to concentrate on my papers.

i am so bothered by everything! things that had happened or not, they just keep popping out in my brain when i try to concentrate. i don't know why am i like this, but i am just too bothered by them.
could someone just help me with them? they are driving me nuts!

i am already super pissed and stressed up with the exam. these stupid things are really adding on to the stress level!

2009-02-18T16:39:00.003+08:00

don't ask me why i am blogging when i should be studying at this particular moment!
i am so stressed up by the damn notes! all the words seems so alien yet so easy at times (However, the fact those stuffs is hard).
AND i am so not going to flunk this examination!!

anyway, the main point of this post is...

I MISS THE BEACH!!
SOMEONE JUST ASK ME TO THE BEACH WILL YOU?
I will be so happy if you do so! =D

time to get back to my notes and paper!

2009-02-17T19:50:00.002+08:00

Exam is just a week away!
this means i have to spend my whole week staying at home and mug like no tomorrow!
i am having 3 papers for this semester, and those 3 are really killer papers.
i really hope i can pass them all and make it safely to year 3.
my exam timetable for this time,
Monday, 23 Feb : Embedded System(ARM) 2.00pm - 4.00pm
Tuesday, 24 Feb : Medical Instrumentation 2.00pm - 4.00pm
Wednesday, 25 Feb : Fundamental Of Control System 2.00pm - 4.00pm

feel so stressed up by the exam now! i am so in need of break after the exam. so someone please, ask me out and have fun! i will be so happy to go with you. anyway, good luck to everyone who are having exam soon! and also all the best to my dearest, Huimin on her coming common test!

2009-02-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

A short update on my little Valentine's day.
Spend the day with Baby at his house first then down to Parkway Parade.
we went there cause we don't want to squeeze with the whole world in town or Vivo.
however, the place was still filled with people just not as much as town or Vivo?
initially, we decided to go down East Coast Park but it seems like that place is packed?
and i mean super packed which really caused a traffic jam.
Anyway, spend quality time together again. enjoyed the day pretty much except for some unexpected things that happen in the afternoon. Thanks baby for tolerating the side effects of the medicine.

2009-02-11T20:32:00.005+08:00

Did some test these 2 days. then i found that there are 2 that are pretty accurate for me.

You can do this on http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Commitment
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

This one is from Cassandra, you guys can try it on http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Name: Su Ping
Date: 2/11/2009
Colorgenics Number: 05732164

The idea of togetherness, love, warmth, tenderness and mutual understanding fascinates you but you seem to be embarrassed by the thought of allowing this to appear openly. It would appear that you employ a cautious exploratory tactic in the pursuit of this objective, making sure that you are neither irrevocably committed nor found out.

Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.

It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

2009-02-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

Pictures from Wednesday, 04 Feb at Waraku.

2009-02-08T17:53:00.002+08:00

an overall post for the past weeks..

i went clubbing at Zouk on Chinese New Year, 初一 with Baby, his cousin, Jeremy and my cousin, Grace. well, the whole place was like empty when we reach at around 10pm. i didn't enjoy much that day, but i guess the rest did? another thing is, my whole family seen Baby already. didn't heard any bad comments or stuffs for now, but who cares! it is my life not theirs. =P

And i went clubbing AGAIN on Friday, 30th Jan at powerhouse, with the Widjaja Clan. this time round we really had lots of fun! like usual, all of us are drunk especially Kenny! he is super duper drunk! he just sit there and stone for like hours till we drag him out of the club! thanks to these crazy drinking session, i think i will be banned from drinking!

then had a early celebration for my birthday on Tuesday, with family since on the exact and day before i will be busy. then went out with the girls on Wednesday, went Waraku for their pasta, which taste really good! We took lots of photos there, but i got to wait for Huimin to send me them.

On the actual day, spend it with Baby. we went for this long long movie called The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button. It last for 3 hours which is super draggy, and the storyline is rather ridiculous. overall, the movie is kinda touching. it is a nice movie to catch if you don't mind the duration. then went for a dinner then back home! Baby, you owe me a Birthday Present!! =D

THANKS PEEPS FOR THE PRESENTS! I LOVE THEM!!

2009-01-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

A few more days to Chinese New Year! which also means another week is wasted! 1 more month to the final examination and i haven't do any revision!
the worse is i am still going for party every weekend! it seems like i got to spend my Chinese New Year studying for the first paper which falls on either the 9th or 10th of Feb.

i really look forward to all the fridays and weekends! well, that is the only time i can meet my big baby! although we are on phone everyday, but it is just different. i miss his hugs! and also bullying him! will be seeing him tomorrow! =)

anyway.. just wanna wish all of you a early HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
i bet i won't be able to update on that day.

2009-01-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

I am starting to feel a little stress up. it seems like exam is just a few more weeks away and i haven't been attending lesson or listening in class. I am still having holiday mood! people, save me!!
the worse is that so many holiday like Chinese New Year is coming soon.

Anyway, i am down with 2 retest. well, it is kinda expected as i didn't really put in much effort for the papers. now i am really struggling to survive in this cruel school life. lets hope things go well and nothing will go wrong! i don't wanna waste another year in poly!
so i really got to spend a week or more to study for the final examination!
please wish me luck!

2009-01-07T18:55:00.002+08:00

Happy 1 month Anniversary Big Baby!

thank you for tolerating my nonsense!
sorry for those stupid things that i have done that had made you angry!
i promise not to hide anything from you! i will try to be a good girl!
although, i haven't told you in the person before. I love you, boy!
you really bright up my life, and hope that we will be together for months or even years!

It is really time for me to put in more effort into my studies!
like expected, i didn't do well for my common test! well, it is only me to blame!
anyway, i promised big baby to study so yeah will do it! =)

2009-01-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time since i update again!
well, like some should know i am busy and am always away from home.
anyway, here are some pictures of my boyfriend's cute little niece and nephew..

2008-12-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

photos taken with him!
Venue: His Room

some individual shots..
Venue: His Room

"violent" him!

thinking of?

shall share these only..
the rest are for personal usage..
i didn't post the not so nice photo of yours! i am so good right? =)

2008-12-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

have been really busy for the whole week!
the time i spend with him and in his house is so much more than in my own!
anyway, i enjoyed the times we spend together.
HOPE you LIKE the present i gave you!

anyway, he was involved in an accident 2 days ago. well, he is not injured but his car is.
so the past few days was spend on his car and next 1-2 days will be spend on it too.
took quite a number of photos just now at his house. gonna post them soon!
hope you don't kill me for those "not very nice" photos!
and stop bullying me!!

2008-12-24T12:31:00.002+08:00

I am back from Korea!
The trip was pretty fun, just that the weather is a little too cold for me.
and thanks to the weather, there isn't much things to shop for.
clothes sold are all winter clothing, it is a little useless since there won't be winter in Singapore.
anyway, i really enjoyed the trip. we got 2 nice tour guides, John(?) and Jack. then our handsome photographer, Jimmy! the 3 important J of the trip!
as for the details, i am too lazy to update. however, i will upload pictures when i have the time to.

went Nat's house on the 22nd afternoon for our small little gathering. we was supposed to be drinking, but they ended up talking about me! poor me, i just went there and got "attacked" by them. anyway, we had quite a fun time there. it has been a long time since we actually met up. initially, we were supposed to stay overnight there but due to some reasons we didn't. Sorry girls, i don't mean to spoil the plan but i don't have a choice. sorry~

i was supposed to post this up 2 days ago, but was too busy so i kinda forget what i wanna write.
shall update new stuffs next post.....

2008-12-16T17:32:00.002+08:00

I guess some idiots just don't know how to mind their own business.
Is my life got to do with anyone of you, idiots!
I don't need any of you to comment on my life.

anyway, 2 more hours before leaving for the Changi Airport.
have to do some last minute packing now. all done and it is time to leave.
i am starting to miss my friends~ and you of course.
anyway, time pass fast. i will be back real soon! then lets have a nice drinking session on the 22nd.
i want to stay over!! if you ever see this, please let me stay over!

I miss you and I love love love you!

2008-12-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

last post for the moment!

will be leaving for Korea tonight and will only be back on the 21st!
i will miss you guys! and yes, i will try to get presents back!

to you you you (you know who you are),
i love you lots! i promise i won't forget you, will remember you by heart!
remember to enjoy your super long leave!
i will call you the first thing i reach Singapore!!

2008-12-14T13:19:00.002+08:00

common test is over!

had a nice "celebration" after the last paper on 12 dec.
it is also a belated birthday celebration for Cassandra. we went down swensen to eat, but the food is horrible! it is a total waste of money!

then we went down boat quay for a drinking session again. went down several bars, like eski bar and X bar(?) cant really remember the name. anyway, eski bar is a really nice place. if you are having a small gathering or just want to drink and chat, that place would be great. as for X bar, we are there because of their sofa seats. overall, the place is pretty good too.

As usual, most of us are semi-drunk and i am one of them. we drank to much, hard liquor and beer. what a nice combination right. i spilled out some personal secret of myself, so people who heard them please keep it to yourself! a special thanks to him for sending my friends home too!

that's all about it, just for your information.
I will be away from 16 dec to 21 dec, so don't bother to contact me.

2008-12-09T18:54:00.002+08:00

well, i guess most of you already knew it. that is not thing i want to blog about anyway.

had my first paper, it is a really bad start! i got this bad feeling that i won't be doing well for it. I guess i just need to prepare for a re-test? lets just hope that i don't need that!

I finally got my phone back!! but i have kinda forgotten how to use it, it seems like there is something wrong with me. or maybe i have short term memory? i will figure out eventually, after all it is my phone.

Gonna go back to my notes before he start scolding me! and thanks for sending me home!

2008-12-08T11:23:00.003+08:00

Peeps, i just said goodbye to my single hood!

that's all i want to blog about. so yeah, no details and stuffs.
if there is a need for you to know, ask me.

2008-11-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

my blog has been dead for ages!
i guess it is time to update!!
well, i can't remember what i last posted.
i don't feel like checking it also, anyway lets start a new!

okay~ my life now is really boring! it is like school and home only. soon, mushrooms will be growing on me! So peeps, start asking me out after 12 dec! as for the time being, it will be all about the common test. really going to put in effort this time round.

i really have no idea on what to write! Nat suggested that i put in photos and videos but i am too lazy to even upload it now! oh! i went IT fair yesterday, bought my 1TB hard drive! now all my videos have a place to go. it seems like i have been writing rubbish.

here is one big important thing! i need to have a chat with the girls! so so get to me soon!!

2008-09-08T16:26:00.004+08:00

another update on 29th Aug.

I went clubbing with Huimin and friends that night. The initial plan was to go Zouk, but we couldn't get in since some of them are under 18. then we went down double O to try our luck, and although the age limit is 20. we are able to get in, that is thanks to one of Huimin's friend who uses his "charm". i really don't know what i can say, but i don't like the place, the music, the people. in another words is everything. The only nice thing is that the drinks are cheap compared to zouk etc. i am lazy to type so just quote from my dear Huimin.

we couldnt get into zouk becos of Abel aka didi! ha, zouk's damn strict and so the boys couldnt get it. So we tried our luck by trying Double O, and we were lucky despite the age limit is 20.Ernest claimed that its becos of his charm, pukes.
The guys had fun becus the drinks are very cheap there.
I wasnt really enjoying myself, cos there were too many touchy guys out there, sucks.
Could have punch all of them if it wasnt so squeezy.
Audrey and friends left first, and the rest of us went slacking near the river.
The guys were drunk and very tired as they have not slept for like 48 hrs?
So there was this stupid drunk ahmoh forcing me and suping to board the taxi at the taxi stand. I was so shocked that i couldnt even make a sound while suping ~~stupidly~~ board the taxi -.-And he kissed me and suping on the cheek! You should have seen Daniel's, ernerst's and Abel's face ( Their jaws apparently dislocated).Abel tried to pull him away from us while Ernest tried to kick his ass ,that man kissed ernest too. its damn funny.
I think that ahmoh's really very drunk , so that he dont even know what he's doing. He paid the taxi driver to send me and suping home. So thanks to this imbecile, We had a free ride home ((:

that's about it. i will come back to write up more if i am not distracted by shows. anyway, i started with tuition already! the primary 3 boy is hopeless!!! while the other 2 girl are pretty much okay. that's about it! I will be back soon~~

2008-09-08T15:20:00.005+08:00

haven't blog for weeks, i was just plain lazy!

anyway, worked at Comex 2008 as a promoter for HP printers. It is seriously hard work, had to stand for a minimum of 9 hours from 12noon to 9pm. that is the supposed working hours, but as you know we have briefing and customers love last minute shopping. well, the fair should close at 9pm but at 8.55pm you will still see people who just walked in. anyway, i completed the 4 days work! enjoyed working with the group! i will miss them! I really really learn a lot about printers especially laser printers. now i know the functions and difference between the other printer brands. i got to thanks Andy for this, seriously his knowledge for printers and promoting skills is superb! BUT, i don't think i will work again since i am not a sales person.

a group photo! i look bad in this photo, but for memories sake i am going to post it.

2008-08-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

Ill Be Your Love - Nicole Scherzinger
I'll Be Your Love - Nicole Scherzinger

Hello!!
It has been a long time since i last update. gonna share with you guys this song that i really like! Hope you guys enjoy! Exams are over, well i guess all i can say is that i have tried my best. now i just hope that i can do well or should i just say pass them. Shall stop all this exams stuffs.

It is holidays again, so guys guys lets hang out!! i miss hanging out with all of you! therefore, organise more activities i will try to be there. oh yea, i will be working in the Comex from 28th - 31st Aug. seriously, i don't really feel like doing it, can i back out? I kinda regret saying that i want to go for this Comex thing. I will also be giving my tuition soon! happy happy happy!

I am feeling better now! not having bad moods any more, in fact i feel that i am getting happier each day. i am going to live my holidays to the fullest and enjoy every single second. well, who knows maybe after i get my results all this happy days will end or when school starts i will get into some stressful life again.

i will try to update more often! sorry for those who i always promised that i will update!
Should i go for the briefing about the Comex tomorrow?!

2008-07-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

When You Believe - Leon Jackson
When You Believe - Leon Jackson

it has been a month since i update! i haven't realise it till 1 minute ago?
Sorry guys, i know i promise to update but i am really not in the mood to do it.

I really flunk my common test which i think i deserve it. i haven't put in enough effort for it thus, i have to study double to get a better grade. i have to do well in exams! so it is time to STUDY STUDY and STUDY! 3 more weeks till the killer exam! so my dearest Huimin, LETS WORK HARD TOGETHER!! we can do it like how we did it during the O level period! Do remember i love you lots lots k?!

well thanks to the common test, i realise that it is time to wake up! i really have to start studying and stop all my nonsense. i should really get serious about my school work and stop playing a fool. i practically stop my social life now, no more playing, party and games. it is serious time!

i am sorry to those i have ignoring or haven't been contacting. i am really not in the mood for anything now. i am having some emotional problems here so just leave me alone. i will get back to you guys once everything is over. Sorry!

it is time to stop letting my mother down. it is really time to shut my f**king dad up! i know i am not a clever girl, not someone who can make you proud and will never be one. so keep all those useless comment to yourself, it is my life and not yours.

2008-06-15T22:13:00.005+08:00

hello peeps! i am back from exams!
lets forget all about the exams, i got this bad feeling about me doing really badly for it. well, i think i deserve it since i did not put in enough effort. anyway, THANKS to those who wished me good luck especially my dearest Huimin and Jessica darling!

i am supposed to update my blog a week ago but i rather lazy and busy with my shows. i have been really enjoying my 2 weeks break. went to watch kungfu panda with Kelvin they all after the last paper. the movie is nice, i really love it. took a photo with the panda outside the cinema.

then went shopping with Jessica darling! bought dresses and shorts! i really enjoy going out with her, always got lots of things to share and talk about. i just love love love her so much! =D

Gonna say SORRY to those i have ignored or have been treating badly for the past few weeks or even till now. it is not that i hate you or anything. it is just me, there are things in my life that is really bothering me. everything in life just so messed up and it is really killing me..

2008-05-22T21:50:00.005+08:00

i am having a totally screwed up life now! everything is giving me problem and i mean EVERYTHING!

firstly, getting sick for going to a month wasn't fun! the f**king thing is that the sickness just keep coming back! the medicines just wont work, so till now i am still down with all the f**king sickness. then everything is going against me, that includes my peers! it is really annoying! sometimes i just feel like screaming at their face to make them stop the nonsense.
sometimes, i just feel like doing those stuffs again. it maybe a bad thing, but somehow it helps. all the problems just seem to disappear at that time..

i know it maybe due to stress and it maybe because of the common test which is just around the corners. still i really need a break soon and i mean it. if this continues, i may do things that are crazy.

well, i really have to say a big THANK YOU to the people who tried to cheer me up!

my dear...
i really have to say a big big THANK YOU to you! thanks for everything you did, i really appreciate it! thanks for cheering me up with everything although some are really not funny. nevertheless THANK YOU! thanks for the bear too and the card! i really love it and i will try to cheer up whenever i see it. it resembles you in some ways.and it will sure remind me of you. really Thanks aLot and Love you..

2008-04-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY VANDA DARLING!!!

Had a really fun time yesterday! met Huimin, Natalie and Vanda for lunch at Brewerkz at Clark Quay. the serving there was really big! only Huimin managed to finish all her food! lets give her a round of applause! ^-^ we got a shirt for Vanda, the birthday girl. Hope that she love it!

we went down to Wisma as i need to get a Topshop gift card and Vanda wants to get a necklace for herself at Moshi Moshi. then Vanda went off to meet her parents for dinner, while the rest of us went home. well, not went home for rest but to prepare for the night life and to wait for Huimin to come my house with her stuffs.

went down to Zouk later the night to meet Vanda again. seriously, we had a fun time there! drink and dance like crazy! the amazing thing is to see someone who doesn't drink get the highest! we danced till like 3.30 when Zouk is preparing to close then share a cab back. haha, i finally found clubbing friends! we should do it more often with more people! =)

a short update for the Saturday's BBQ at ECP with the YEP group..

most of the people came and that includes the teachers! we really had a great time there! did stuffs like walking on the beach and BBQ-ing our night away! i really love the YEP group, they are always so on, so bonded and the most important is fun! the sad thing is that both dear and steven are not there! but anyway, we really really had lots of fun there!! i love to stay with this group especially the red army!!

2008-04-14T20:33:00.002+08:00

school has started~ my first day in year 2!

met Jessica darling, dear dear and the rest of the red army for lunch! had a really great time hanging out with them! we wore the red army shirt too, it is just so cool man! but the thing is people are always staring, it seems like we are really weird or something. i passed the condoms to dear dear already! i am doing my job to promote safe sex! =D

then went CCA fiesta after lecture to get myself another CCA and to visit Wen Chuan. ohya, i signed up with NP strings to learn violin. rather surprising huh, but anyway i am quite interested in it. so yeah, gonna give it a try! that's all about today, since it is only the first day!

i really want to get a hIM! he just have to be a man with decent skin colour and looks! don't ask me why, i just want to get in love again. or maybe i am already in love with someone but i guess that person will never know? or i should never have this feeling before. but anyway, forget about it is time to move on and find someone more worthwhile than him! so yeah, good luck to me!

2008-04-13T18:48:00.002+08:00

updatesss...

went Vanda darling house with Natalie on Thursday to learn some make up stuffs and then to dinner. Vanda and I bought condoms too, well it is not that we are going to use it. it is just that we are too attracted to the pretty boxes they come in. it is so pretty that i am planning to get more! as for the condoms, i am going to my dear dear. To promote safe sex! =x

met darlingss for dinner on Friday. wore the new skirt that i bought from Topshop, the skirt is nice BUT there are threads at the end where if you start pulling the whole skirt will be gone. i am freaking serious about it, so if you ever see me wearing that skirt remember not to pull those threads! anyway, we went to orchard where Vanda and I wanted to get heels which we didn't. then Huimin wanted to go to Cotton On, and Vanda wants to go to Maxstudio.com's physical shop in Wisma.

we had a hard time coming up with places for dinner. since i suddenly feel like drinking, we suggested to go to restaurant bar as we have non-drinkers in the group. There are some choices like DXO, Timbre, Sketches and some restaurant bar outside Wisma. we chose Sketches in the end, since we wanted some quiet place to catch up with one another. well, most of the topics of the day were adult contents for i don't know what reason.

had the red army gathering yesterday! we went to kbox since we are a big group and most of them love to sing. we really had lots of fun there, especially when the guys sang. they really lightened up the whole atmosphere. after kbox, we went to the food count to have our dinner. then to Clark Quey to slack while waiting to enter MOS.

well, MOS is pretty fun except for 1 reason. the main reason for this is because of the people you go with! =) this 1 reason is because of this freaking random guy, as for the details it is not that important. however, if you really want to know feel free to get to me. we had Martell mixed with either coke or green tea. the weird thing is that the alcohol doesn't seem to be working on me yesterday. still we have to Thank the guys for the bottle of Martell as they are the ones paying.
we left the place at around 2, we went to have supper at McDonald then home sweet home!

i am getting a little weird these days, i am like crazy over alcohol! then the week before, i have always been puking. i will just puke what ever i have eaten! anyway, that is over. the thing now is i am crazy over alcohol! i really want to freaking get myself drunk! so peeps, who want to join me?! =x

2008-04-06T00:49:00.003+08:00

had a fun and busy week! activities almost everyday, they are really draining all my energy away.

Firstly, went to Seoul Garden for dinner on Wednesday with the YEP group. most of them turned up, even the teachers and that really surprise me. we had a really great time there, eating and having weird competitions like the ice kachang and ice cream earthquake competition. of course, it is not the girls but the guys who had those competitions. seriously, they are really weird. they just seem to love to get themselves puke and have diarrhoea. i did puke too, but that is because i am not feeling well. then we went to the esplanade to chill and drink the baileys wenchuan bought. i got myself updated with news of the group, some of the news really surprise me. i took a cab home since i am too lazy to wait for the freaking bus.

Then, to the East Coast Park for skating on Friday. i thought there will be a big group going but in the end only 10 of us turned up. i really forgotten the ways to skate, i have thrown away all that i have learned. i prefer to skate on land than on ice, there is more fun and it makes you sweat! it has been a long time since i sweat that much! i really love the feeling, i think it is time for me to take up a sport! then Vanessa and Han Song joined us for dinner at some Hong Kong cafe. as usual, i didn't finish my food but that is not the point. really had lots of fun that day! lets have more of such activities!

Lastly, went Sentosa with darlings to suntan on Saturday. i got a little tanned and i love it! it makes me look healthier. we had a really great time there, chit-chatting, bitching about others and stuff. i swear yesterday was really our day, everything just went so fine! wanna see the pictures taken? contact me! After the tanning session, we went to Vivo to have our meals and did some shopping. well, spent quite a lot on the clothes. shopping is really a killer for me! the amount i spent is about S$400?! don't think that i bought like tons of clothes, it is because of the brand and price. anyway, i am quite satisfied but there are still stuffs that i haven't get. so yeah, i think i need another shopping spree.

anyway here are the pictures we took in various fitting rooms...

they are nice isn't it?! i just love going out with them, my lovely darlingss! remember the promise we made, lets hit the beach once every month!

nEw schOol yeAr resolutiOn.
1. ExeRcise
2. TanNed
3. Good GPA
4. gEt mySelf a gUy.
5. dO ___________

2008-04-03T14:49:00.005+08:00

i came across some quotes that i find them kinda meaningful...

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
'Oh excuse me please' was my reply.

He said, 'Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you.'

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,

'While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.

Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.'

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
'Wake up, little one, wake up,' I said.

'Are these the flowers you picked for me?'
He smiled, 'I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.'

I said, 'Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way.'

He said, 'Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway.'

I said, 'Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.'

F A M I L Y

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?

So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

isn't this what most of us do? when we are dealing with a stranger or friend, courtesy will be used. however, when dealing with our family, where is all the courtesy? shouldn't we treat our family like how we treat the strangers?

Love. Easy word to spell. Easy word to say. Most people throw around the world "love" like it's nothing. But it's definitely something. It's that "I can live without you, but I don't want to" kinda feeling that you get when you see that special someone. It's more than romance, more than the exchange of sweet words. It's the feeling of holding hands, soft kisses on the cheek, knowing that no matter what you're going through in life, no matter how you're feeling, that special someone will always be there to brighten your day, to know how to make you smile in their own special way. Don't throw the word "love" around like it's nothing, cos it's everything. Never tell someone you love them when you don't. Wait for that special someone, the person that makes "love" what it is.

i love this one, kinda true isn't it? love is an easy word, too easy that people don't take it seriously. so it still possible to believe in "love"? well, i wonder when can i find the person that can give me the feeling of "love" and is possible to make it what it is.

2008-03-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am back! Back from the 2 weeks trip to Vietnam!

I wanted to update before I leave for Vietnam however the internet hates me. It just doesn’t allow me to get into the web.

The trip was really fun! We had a fun time cooking, playing with the kids and building the toilet and fence! Well, of course most of the building is not done by us as we are not that skilled. We just helped the construction workers by messing up the works and made them redo them again. The kids there are so violent but they are really cute too! They love to hit peoples’ butt and it is really painful. You just can’t imagine that is done by some kindergarten kids.

Well, there is still a bunch of interesting things that happened but I just can’t describe them in words! If you were there, you will know it as for the rest I am so sorry. I have just no idea what I can use to describe them! As for the pictures, I haven’t gotten all of them so I will post them when I have gotten all!

The time in Vietnam is really memorable! I really miss those times, now I wish it can be longer. I miss all of you especially the RED ARMY and my DEAR DEAR!

messagesss~

Jessica - you are really a nice and cheerful girl! I really enjoy the times we stayed up late just to hang out with the guys and chit-chat! Remember to take care of yourself especially your spinal problem! thanks for the care and concern you have given when i am sick and also the [s]letter[/s]! All the best for your coming exam!

YuHuan - my cousin's mei! haha, anyway i just wanted to tell you that i really love to have you as a friend! I really enjoy the times we went shopping, pedicure and those chit-chatting sessions! thanks for the care and concern you have given when i am sick too! Do remember to return me my mirror!

Belinda - if i remember correctly, you are my first person i got really close to! you are really a sweet girl and it seems like you will never be tired! seriously, whenever someone asked if you are tired and your answer will always be a no. i really love staying with you because there will always be food and laughter!

Vanessa - my group's cute leader who has a funny laughter and is a blur queen! i am sorry to say this but your laughter is really contagious! whenever i hear you laugh, i just feel like laughing with you too! you are really cute especially when you are watching cartoons! you love to mumble and laugh at the same time! hope to hear your laughter soon!

June - girl ah, i really don't know what to say to you! the only thing i want to say now is all the best to you and him! you know who i am referring to and if both of you really have something remember to tell me! haha. good luck!!

Steven - my handsome friend, i really wonder why did you say that i am throwing bme's face?! what did i actually do and i didn't know it myself? can you actually tell me so i can do something to it. anyway, lets hope that we will be classmates till we graduate! good luck!!

Nicholas - my mortal! i don't know if you ever show that letter to the others but i mean whatever i wrote on the letter! i really enjoy hanging out with you and the group! it is really fun and cool! please don't be too upset about to be the gayest as i am sure you will change to someone who is really man!

Chris - my dear dear ah! you should really cut down on the amount of cigarettes and alcohol! you have already taken a lot in Vietnam is really way to much! it is also time for you to study hard! you are clever and i am sure you can do well in your studies! so stop saying that you are stupid! anyway, i am really happy to know you! i enjoyed the times we spend in Vietnam and i am going to miss it a lot!

2008-02-25T17:59:00.002+08:00

It has been months since i last update my dear blog. Well, here will be a brief update of the happenings...

life is really busy for the past few months, as the term is really short. i am like having tests everyday, if there is no tests then we have to rush our projects. there is only 1 word to describe and that is busy!
well, there are also some fun events like the open house where we drew on the "shout-out" board.

It is nice, isn't it!

Then life continues, until the last week of school where we started drawing on the tables..

i know this is a pretty "no life" action, but for the past few months we are really "no life". then, it is exam! sometimes i really hate the school, why do they always have to change the exam format this year!! i really feel like slapping them upside down, are they trying to fail us or something!!now i am so damn worried about my papers, i am so not going to retake any of them!! and this is the end of my year 1 life!

anyway, i am leaving for HUE, Vietnam in about 2 weeks time on the 9th. i will be staying there for 2 weeks doing CIP work like painting walls etc. then i will be back on the 24th morning. i will try to get presents back for all of you, that is if i ever to get to go shopping. however, no matter what i will get a present for you, my DEAR HUIMIN!! so guys, wish me all the best!!!

2007-11-24T13:06:00.000+08:00

haven't been in the mood to update..school life is really in a mess now, with all the tests and projects i am really going nuts!

the past 2 weeks is really bad! i failed my Biophysics test 2, got a borderline pass for my Physiology test and the worst is computer programming! i just didn't add a 0.0 it gave me 98/100!! there goes my 2 marks! then i have been sick for 3 weeks, one after another. there is really a problem with my body lately, spent so much on doctors!

then i have also been always skipping class, and my latest aim is to clear all the times i can skip for a module.i know i am a bad student, but school life is really boring! i am starting to hate school for god sake. the lecturers and tutors are always flooding us with all their homework and the deadlines for them are always so near! lets hope the semester will be over soon!!!

here are some pictures of the things we did during maths lecture...